Motivation: Work Relationship

This post was originally posted on my WordPress account on December 6, 2014.


At some point, I consider my team in the office as my family. I’ve been so used to staying home alone and seeing my family so rarely that my workplace, my team leader and team members have become my usual people. They’ve become a part of my daily life.

I’ve shared the corniest (lamest) joke ever. I’ve shared my life experiences, daily rants, frustrations and a bit of my personality with them. Heck, I was even part of a ruckus in the last quarter of this year because of a friend and a teammate. It just amazes me how close we’ve become — at least in my perspective.

That, no matter how grumpy or how much of a bully I am in the office, they are still there to listen to me and value my opinion. It also makes me feel happy because we get to catch up from time to time even if some of the members have already moved to another team. I guess, it was not just the students that remind me to be passionate about work. It’s them. It’s because we get to share great ideas, some puns, similar reactions, and struggles together.

I guess we developed a good camaraderie in the process because we know how things are in the office. We somehow share the same sentiments and same experiences. I’ve been writing about the heavy work load these past few days. I even had to retake a test because I failed in the monthly assessment.

With all the deadlines that they are giving us, the numerous calls that we have to make, the competitions and the successes, it makes me feel that I’m doing a great job in what I do and that is what’s important for me.

I understand that there’s nothing permanent in this world but I’m hoping that I’d get to last in this company with these people who have become a part of me and a part of whom I have become.

When I Was Still Passionate About Work

This post was originally posted on my WordPress account on November 7, 2014.

I was blogging on my tablet about my training in the Level Test. A Level Test is a process in which the students’ scores are based on their English proficiency and assessed through the phone. I cannot give you more details about that because it is against the company’s policy.

As I wrote this, I’m already on my third day in my Level Test training.

On the first day, Sir Ed discussed the flow of the class. I couldn’t absorb some of the things that he said because I don’t really have any idea on what we are going to do. All I did was jot down notes and listen. When he asked me if I have a question,  I was a little dumbfounded because I really don’t know what to say.

On the second day, he discussed the flow again. We listened to some of the LT recordings and we assumed the level of the students. I joined the 3 PM schedule instead of the 3:50 PM schedule because I usually have a lot of students on Thursdays. I didn’t catch the first part because they started right away. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to finish the training because I had classes again.

My co-trainees and I had our demo on the third day. It wasn’t very smooth because we had too many errors when we had our first demo.

I noticed that I had to polish my grammar corrections because the trainer pointed out that mistake. I also had a two-minute undertime because I didn’t maximize the free talking part of the class. He said that I should enjoy the class more. Overall, he said that it was okay.

I got too conscious because I forgot to use my timer and my nerves got the best of me. I forgot to ask more questions. I forgot to make the most of the six-minute call. I even used a pencil instead of typing my corrections on the keyboard which made the process more complicated. I also didn’t follow the flow. We had an activity and I asked his purpose in studying English but I forgot to ask his interest. We also had free talking during the activity part which was unnecessary. I had my corrections but my transition was all over the place. I was supposed to read what I have written but I didn’t do it. I was able to wrap up and say my final spiel. I stuttered a lot because I was too nervous and conscious until it ended.

I’m such a noob. But that’s just the first try. No pressure. Hahaha! We will have the scoring part next week.

There’s an afternoon LT teacher that will change her shift to morning so there will be a vacant slot. I hope that I will get the slot but I don’t want to be disappointed when I’m not chosen.

It seems like my chances of being chosen in such position is unlikely in this company. I dread the feeling of being disappointed. I’m already contented with my salary. I can manage if I am not overspending on unnecessary wants. However, I don’t want to waste the opportunity. The additional income would also be beneficial to me.

I also want it. It seems fun. However, I’m a little worried with my students because they’ve registered several times with me ever since I started working in this company. I want this. It is something new because I’m feeling a bit burnt out these days.

But of course, that is if it is really meant for me. If not, it’s okay. I am not really supposed to be a part of this. It was just offered to us and they just asked us if we are interested. I was actually hesitant to accept it. Some part of me was just forced to do it. I was pressured by my former colleague, who used to be very close to me at that time. She encouraged me to try it because she will try it as well. I value our friendship at that time so I did.

I was thinking that it was just a survey and it is not yet confirmed so I said yes. After two weeks, my Team Leader called me and told me at the pantry that out of 30 people who signed up for it, there were only 8 people who were chosen. And I’m one of them. However, my former colleague wasn’t included in the eight people.

I felt a little guilty but I was gloating deep inside. I felt very happy because I got chosen and she wasn’t. We were already competing at that time. I felt relieved when I heard that news because she can’t gloat about it. I got ahead of her. But I feel a little embarrassed because if it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t be included in that list. If she didn’t encourage me, I wouldn’t be chosen. But it’s already over. I’m already training for it.

I would like to give credit to myself too. I deserve this. I guess I have the skills for it, I’m soft spoken and I have passed my grammar tests as well. I think I am qualified for it. Or perhaps it’s because I’m already a regular employee and she’s still on probationary. I really don’t know.

I’m going to claim it already because I’m already here. I worked hard for it. I’m passionate in my job even if it is repetitive and exhausting. This is the job that I felt very much appreciated. My efforts are recognized.

I felt very happy because it broke my monotonous career. They appreciate my dedication because even if I do not ask for it, I was given a chance to show what I can do. I feel like a student again because I’m training for a new skill and I’m being challenged to do something new. My skills are put to test in a way that I can enjoy. It feels rewarding.

I’m contented with my Saturday overtime work. I don’t need to work too much. However, I hope that it will be given to me because it would be a great help.