Catching Up On A Tuesday

I know that I haven’t posted anything since my last entry. I remember writing about blogging from time to time as one of my goals and yet not doing so because of so many things that have happened over the past few months.

 

To re-cap:

 

I’m finally free from all the guilt that I have and all the pent-up emotions that I’ve been keeping for years. I was cool at first but I ended up breaking down to Papa yesterday, as I have told him about how my life has been since I left Antipolo.

It wasn’t easy. It was actually something that I wanted to tell them. It was something that I wanted to rub on their faces. It was something that I thought would show my pride.

It started when one of my aunts asked me about my wedding budget. So I showed her our finances. After that, she asked me about my plans after our wedding and where will my mom stay if the condo will be sold this year.

This is quite personal, but I’m going to give you a glimpse of my life for today.

I’ve already explained to them in detail. I’ve already told them how mom is like and what our plans are for her. However, things won’t work out the way we want it to be if she doesn’t have any plans for herself.

“It’s like talking to a wall,” I said.

She’s not the type who’s open to suggestions and solutions. Simply because, she wants things the easy way. She only wants things to be handed over to her while the others work their asses off and give it for free.

I’ve been trying to understand her and stood by her ever since we left Antipolo. However, my efforts aren’t enough. Not now, when I’m just a part-timer. Not now, when I’m still preparing for my wedding. Not now, when I know that she doesn’t want to help herself. Her initiative and drive to earn and make a living to sustain her needs should also be instilled in her. She should be our role model but she isn’t.

Oh, I value her care and how she takes care of me. I’m thankful and grateful for that but she isn’t perfect and her imperfections make it hard for us. It was bad enough that my relatives have to rub it in my face. And frankly speaking, I’m well aware of what’s going on. If only I have the means, I wouldn’t hesitate to help her. But I also have a lot on my plate right now and they aren’t helping at all.

I just hate the fact that they used the situation to go high and mighty on me. I was just beginning my life as an adult and I thought that I’m doing well as a self-efficient individual. I’ve been stuck on the idea of pleasing others that Ino often reminds me that I shouldn’t bother about pleasing them all the time. But still I do it because that’s what makes me at ease.

Now, I just have to let things go. I just don’t care about what they think right now or how bad they perceived me to be. I’m gonna live my life the way I want it to be.

I’m way past anger and I’ve accepted that I lost. I have never asked for anybody’s help ever since Mama Babes passed away. I have never asked for any financial support from Papa. I was in debt for more than a year, had to work for more than 8 hours everyday to sustain my life, and paid for everything that I need on my own. I never asked for anyone’s help because I don’t want to hear people telling me that I’m not grateful enough.

Now, I just don’t really care. If Papa will give me some money or not, it’s his choice. I am not gonna impose any amount or whatever. I just hope that he will see it the way I see it, that I’m grateful enough. That sending me to school is enough. That having his name is enough. That even if I need something, I just want him to appreciate everything that I’ve experienced. I just want him to be proud of my simple accomplishments. And if he will ever give me something, I hope that he will give me something on his own volition.

 

Aside from that, I’ve already accepted that I didn’t get the job that I was hoping for. I’ve gotten over it. Now, I’m just waiting for the go signal for my full-time job. I’m just enjoying my free time and my schedule as a part-time employee. Perhaps, it will be given to me when I’m 100% ready to wake up early and give my best for 8 hours.

I’m still open to other possibilities but I won’t be rushing anymore.

His will be done.

January Recap

I’ve been meaning to write since I quit my job. It’s almost February and here I am trying to write something as if I’ve been busy for a while. Truth is, I’m just at home most of the time or at the gym choosing what to play in my head while I stretch my arms or run or something.  I haven’t done much work since I resigned and I am really running out of funds. I basically struggled with earning money as a freelancer and I kinda sucked at getting things done. I would really like to blame our noisy apartment for being unsuccessful, but the thing is, the Internet was also not at par with Taiwan’s Internet speed.

The upside of basically chilling at home is you don’t need an alarm clock to tell you that you need to work your ass off. You also don’t need to always be in a hurry. However, I may have slacked a lot instead of having a productive time in cooking or cleaning the house. It’s not boredom that’s making me want to go out, but it’s the freedom to actually do something without always thinking about the time or to be in a hurry. Aside from having the urge to receive a monthly salary, the mere fact that I’m getting lazy to go out and do something worthwhile are eating me alive.

I guess, I just need to find a hobby or something else. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve applied to at least five companies this month and I’m proud to say that I got a job offer in 4 out of the 5 jobs that I’ve applied for. It’s just that I’ve been so picky with what I want to do this year.

Ino and I have just started our reservations in the church and our reception, and there’s still so much to deal with. Most of it are finance related so, we still have to take things at a time. I know that there’s so much pressure from all the preparations and the down payments needed for each wedding aspect. So, it’s really better if I could also earn a little.

I think I’ve written about my thoughts regarding having a simple dream before. To reiterate, I just want a simple life and I want to earn something for myself. I prefer to have simple but attainable dreams. I don’t really aim for unattainable or unrealistic dreams.

So, here I am trying to recap what has happened during my idle month.

Right now, I’m about to start my training in another Korean company. I still don’t know much about the details yet but this company feels like home to me. Probably it’s because of the same people that I used to work with, or the new environment, or probably it’s because it’s a small company. I don’t know. I’ll find out soon and write about it soon.

 

I still have a couple of entries that I haven’t posted. Those entries were taken last year but I am still feeling lazy and time constricted so I cannot post it tonight. However, if time permits then I might post it this February.

 

1st Week of January Musings

Hello from the other side!

I mean hello 2017! I’ve been meaning to write since I resigned in my previous company. I think I’ve been enjoying the long breaks and all the free time that I have too much; And as a result, I tend to forget that I need to write something or anything. However, whenever I try to upload some new photos or update the last 5 or 3 pages of this blog, I become more lazy by the day and I tend to close the windows and shut my laptop down.

Anyway, it’s already the 5th of January which means that I’ve slacked too much and people are already done with their resolutions and stuff. I’m not really planning to write my resolution for this year but I’m hoping for more great things to come.

Instead, I’d like to write some of my plans and the things that I’m looking forward to this year.

Let’s start, shall we?

 

  • Find a job. I’m officially unemployed and I’m somehow enjoying my free time. ‘Though I’m not busy with work and nobody’s paying me for anything, I was still busy with opening a new bank account and applying for a part-time home-based job.

 

  • Go to the gym. Budgeting my money from my last two salaries last December was so painfully stressful. I tried my best to follow the plan, but I somehow used some of the money for things that I want than what I need. On the other hand, I was able to allot some money for the two months promo in Gym Plus! I hope to go to the gym regularly ‘though.

 

  • Blog more often. I’ve been procrastinating since I was free from work. I’ve never been productive online since then. I tried to enlarge some of the photos here but I’m getting too lazy to finish it. This 2017, I’m planning to write whenever I feel like it and try to fight laziness from getting in the way of finishing what needs to be done. I want this blog to be more useful than last year. I need to be more serious and more passionate in writing quality entries this year.

 

  • Take more pictures. I just bought my own compact camera last year and I tried my best to take some photos of the places, events, restaurants and other interesting things that I’ve been to or that I’ve tried. However, my photos are not exactly blog worthy. Since I’m such a late bloomer in the field of photography, I didn’t get to enjoy taking photos the same way other people prioritize documentations passionately. It was just because of Saab Magalona that I really got interested in taking photos and uploading it to my website. She even inspired me to get my own domain and stay in WordPress. All in all, I really need to take photography seriously and take really nice shots since I have a decent camera to use. If I’m using it to document something, then I have to make sure that the quality of the photos are clear and worth posting online. I should really learn from my very shaky photographs last year.

 

  • Read more books. It’s quite ironic that I’ve told my students to read more but I don’t regularly do it. I’ve been preoccupied with so many things that I’ve taken reading for granted. I’ve been doing house chores, playing online games, sleeping, doing errands, and other things but it has been ages since I really read a book and sat on it for hours. I must read more often. I must enrich my vocabulary. I know that I need it for my next job. I need to be more efficient this year.

 

  • Write more stories. I used to say that I don’t have enough time to write. I’m very much busy with so many things like work, going out and blogging about stuff, playing games, more work, relationship stuff, and all the other excuses I can make to make you believe that I’m busy. Oh! Writer’s block is a very big contributor as well. Without the proper muse or fuel to write something worth reading or writing about, I tend to do other things like sleep or laze around.

I hope that I would be more eager to share my thoughts, my opinions, my daily life and the things that I’m into this year. I’ve attempted to put some soul to this blog by giving you a preview of what my life has been because reading this blog sometimes makes me feel inorganic. However, people’s writing styles may change for different reasons and for different point of views over a period of time. Maybe it’s just my way of maturing or perhaps, writing about my personal life in a more personal level is not something that I would really like to share these days.

I hope that I could write more scenes and finish some stories this year.

 

It’s quite funny that the things that I’m looking into as goals are somewhat like resolutions too. I think it’s a subtle resolution as well.

 

  • Wake up early. I’m a night owl. I am definitely a night person and an insomniac. Perhaps it’s because I’ve gotten used to this lifestyle for more than three years or perhaps, it’s just a mind over matter thing. I know that I can wake up early if I want to. Heck, I’ve survived xx years of school and was able to graduate on time but I’ve never really tried to do it voluntarily.

The most stress-free moment for me was when I stopped using my alarm clock and snoozing it several times in a day. However, many people say that waking up early and seeing Mr. Sun rise is a good thing for our health. Eating breakfast and eating on time helps as well. If I want to lose weight, I really need to be more disciplined not only mentally or physically but also emotionally, psychologically, etc. It’s also for my own good anyways.  I think I should try to wake up early this week. It’s already 12:33 AM here so, I can’t sleep early today and I’m still blogging! So, tomorrow, January 5. Procrastinating… again.

 

  • Do the house chores regularly. I’m not a perfect person. Nobody is. I tend to forget so many things and I admit that I only do the things that people usually remind me to do. Sometimes, I can become very lazy and forgetful. Those are both bad habits that I must change this year. I need to be more willing to do the house chores voluntarily and willingly. I must have an initiative so that Ino and I won’t fight often.

 

  • Learn more dishes to cook. It has been tried and tested that I know how to cook and basically can follow a cookbook. ‘Though I still can’t figure out the right timing when it comes to not overcooking the food or burning it. In my several attempts to be a good housewife, I was able to successfully discover my cooking skills. It may not be at par with my sister’s baking skills but I can say that the food that I cooked were quite edible. However, I really need to seriously learn the ways on how to properly cook a decent meal for my future husband, future children, my parents and myself. I’m actually proud to say that given the complete ingredients and a clear instruction on how to make it, I know that I can actually make a decent meal.

 

 

I’ve been meaning to let this entry go but it’s already 3 AM and I’m still thinking about the things that I want to accomplish. Perhaps, I should just update this entry next time.

 

The Sunday Currently Vol. 14

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Taken a few months back. Back when we used to bring cheap snacks on Fridays. (Random photo)

 

Hello December!

I know that I’ve totally abandoned my blog because I’ve been busy with so many things. I still have 2 entries that I haven’t posted yet because I don’t have enough time and energy to do it. Honestly. But don’t fret, because the photos are just in my camera and it will just take me a while to upload it and make the entries. (I haven’t updated the margins for the tablet view and the mobile view so that’s one of the reasons why I’m slacking too.)

I’m trying to learn a few things about CSS with the help of Ino but I think I still need to learn some coding skills here and there to really customize my theme. Well, I had asked for Ino’s expertise since he’s a senior web developer, but it’s almost Christmas… and he always tells me that he’ll fix it but I’m getting impatient. So, I decided to tinker it myself and just ask him for a walk-through. Because if I don’t do it, who else would?

In other news…

I also know that I have to catch up with you and keep you updated with what’s going on in my life. So here it goes…

Reading

I never got to finish 50 Shades of Grey (the Filipinized version), but I was able to finish City of Bones. I forgot when exactly, but I’m happy to let you know that I’m now on the third chapter of City of Ashes. My paperback has been on the shelf for a few years and I just opened the book last Friday because I almost died out of boredom last week. It’s all thanks to our Korean managers and their ‘no-gadgets-on-the-desk’ rule. 

I’m also reading Victoria Aveyard’s Red Queen. I had a hard time reading it at first because I didn’t get it but after trying my best to understand it, I’m proud to say that I’m already on the fourth chapter. I’m still trying to get interested with the plot so, I hope to finish this book by next year.

Listening

I can hear the scenes of the movie, Spectral. Ino is watching it beside me on the bed while I’m writing my TSC. It’s a little distracting, but it’s fine.

Thinking

I’m thinking about my salary, my 13th month pay and my bills. I was hoping to save some money for my resignation and the ‘homebased’ or work-at-home life next year. I’m a little stressed out with work and how I’ll get the hang of everything but I’m really looking forward to the changes that I’ll be facing next year. 

After a while, I realized that I’ve been working in the office for quite some time and I haven’t practiced my degree. In a few months, I’ll be getting married and I have to be more responsible. I have to be a good wife and I have to be a better person. I hope that I won’t regret choosing this over everything that I’ve gotten used to.

Smelling

I don’t smell anything here right now.

Wishing and Hoping

I’m wishing and hoping that I will have a successful career path next year. I hope that I could balance work and leisure, as well as my time for myself without compromising my time with my future husband.

I wish that everything will work out and will run smoothly as planned. If not then, I’d have to think of another plan to get back on my feet again.

Wearing

I’m wearing a blue and white stripes spaghetti nightgown.

Loving

I’m loving this weekend because Ino and I were able to hear mass tonight. I’m also happy that I was able to do my laundry and update my TSC.

Wanting

 I want to have this theme done already. I also want this month to be over so that I could start working at home, go to the gym and learn new things.

Needing

I need to budget my money wisely. I also need to sleep earlier and wake up earlier than usual. I also need to update my resume and prepare my documents soon.

Feeling

I feel uncomfortable because of my itchy throat. Having sore throat really sucks. On the other hand, I’m mentally and emotionally counting down the days that I’ll be leaving the company. I’m looking forward to the things that I can do and I can achieve.

Clicking

Clicking through my previous TSC. 

I haven’t used my laptop for quite a while but I’m glad that I’m back to posting things again. 🙂

How about you? What are you doing? Link up & share your Sunday Currently on Sidda Thornton’s blog. :)

For those who need this:

 

There was just this one time that I needed to tell him how I feel. One time… when I felt that there was lacking, almost running out, and about to be missing, my fear and insecurity got the best of me.

My fears got the best of me. My insecurity has taken over me. And before I could stop myself, it has already caused chaos between us.

What I was trying to do was to get him back and resolve our problems. I wanted him back. I wanted all of him. All of his time. I was trying to tell him how I feel, when we started arguing. The difference in tone combined with bitterness and anger has enveloped the room. The things I wanted to repair have just gotten worse. Some irreparable, some things we couldn’t take back.

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I found myself crying silent tears which became louder and louder. I found myself crying all night. I literally cried myself to sleep and when I woke up, I started sobbing again. He wanted to know what’s happening and what the problem was. But I couldn’t find the words to explain to him how I feel and how I am envisioning our relationship.

He told me that he was unhappy because I was micromanaging him. All the while, I thought that I am just showing concern. However, it didn’t occur to me that I was micromanaging him. I unintentionally hurt him. And he’s not happy anymore.

I didn’t know where to stand. I don’t know where we are or how our relationship would last. What would happen after this? What would become of our relationship? What will happen to us? What will happen to our relationship as we are getting close to getting married?

I am so scared to lose him. To lose everything in our relationship. To begin again. To start from scratch. I felt so scared to do things all over again. To see him with someone else. To find him doing things with someone else. To find him happy with someone else. Thoughts cloud my mind and all I ever wanna do is end my life.

All I know at that time was that I’m very sad. That I don’t want to wake up tomorrow. That I want to end this pain. So I grabbed a knife and almost slashed my wrist. And he found me. Took the knife away and stopped me from what I was supposed to do.

I was thinking of other ways to end my life that night. I was considering taking the poison from a medicine bottle. However, the thought of having the poison in my body and failing to kill myself made me think of the effects it would do to my body. I felt even more helpless and I found myself drowning in my own tears and my own thoughts. I felt so alone. I felt so helpless.

I didn’t know where to go. I can’t put my thoughts into words that night. He kept on asking me what’s going on and I can’t bring myself to talk. I can’t even tell him how messed up my thoughts are. It’s like a part of me was dying every second, every minute, every time.

I almost killed myself and I itch to play with that knife again. I am beyond self-pity but I am not yet ready to fail again in my next attempt. I was thinking of doing it again this morning. But my tired eyes and body didn’t let me. I was also scared to die.

I was just asking for time. I was asking it because he has his own world now and he’s doing the things he want to do. He has a life and I don’t. All I do is go to work and go home and stay at home on my rest days. It made me feel that I’m competing with his friends / his co-workers. It made me feel that he is moving on in his life and I’m left on the same spot. His lack of time made me feel that I am getting left behind. He also ignores me when we’re together which adds up to my paranoia. My thoughts have gone haywire after that. Insecurity has swallowed me whole.

This afternoon, I had already taken a shower when I felt the need to stay at home, waste my time in bed and wallow in tears. Some part of me wants to go to work to forget how bad I feel and how lonely I am. A part of me wants to stay at home and embrace the miserable feeling that I am feeling. My conscious mind is telling me that I can’t afford to be absent at work today and that I can’t afford to add troubles to my work now. That is the only thing that I have. That’s the only stable thing that I have right now and I can’t jeopardize it no matter how broken I am.

My consciousness won over my miserable thoughts. I went to work without bringing my gadgets. I was supposed to leave my phone and my powerbank but I am already late to work and I need to tell my team leader where I am so that I can inform him about my whereabouts. I ended up bringing my phone and powerbank to work.

I still informed Ino that I was headed to work. We eventually exchanged messages on hangouts and sort of patched things up.

My current plan is to go home alone. I won’t mind him to fetch me anymore. He must be busy. He must need more time to finish his work and after all the stress that I put him through, perhaps, he can’t fetch me again today.

I was trying to talk myself to it. That things have changed and that he may not do the same things that he used to do. I may have been somewhere in his list of priorities. He said he’s going to try to limit his time for himself to give time for me.

It just pains me that he needs to sacrifice his time for himself, for his enjoyment, to be with me. Or that our time to be together or his time to be with me must be sacrificed so that he can do the things that he want to do.

Yeah, we are now in that part of the relationship. Where I find myself asking what has happened the whole time and what happened to the time he used to spend with me? Why does it feel like I need to beg for his time now that we are about to get married? And certain thoughts have crossed my mind about what would happen to us if this problem continues.

I still don’t know where I stand. I still don’t know where to go. All I know is I want to fix this. I want to be with him. I don’t want to break up with him. But I’m not sure if he still needs me. If he still wants me. Or if he’s still happy with me.

He said that he always considers me in everything he does. That whenever he sents me messages, he shows concern and time for me. But that was all there is to it. When I go home or when I arrive at home, he’s usually busy with work and Facebook and other things. When he gets back to me, he’s always hot headed and irritated. Sometimes, I am not doing anything but he just gets angry. I tend to ask why and we’re back to arguing.

I’m so confused and I feel exhausted. I don’t know what’s left in this relationship. If he ever sees these things. If he ever noticed. If he ever cares.

I’m so far gone in his priorities. I feel so left alone. I don’t know where to start or how to pick up where we left off. Or where to even begin.

My subconscious is telling me something again. I am just choosing not to listen to it. I’m so close to giving up. I’m so close to letting go. I’m so close to leaving myself behind as well. I don’t really know what to do with my life anymore.

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SONAMOO

My apologies…

This is a late post.

This happened on July 15, 2016. This was right after our shift and I was so excited to be going to this place that I impulsively took some pictures even if my phone was about to ran out of batteries. Yep, I wasn’t able to charge my phone at that time. Did I have a powerbank? I think I didn’t. It also sucks because I didn’t bring my camera at that time. I really should make it a point that I bring my camera whenever I go out. It’s going to be useless in the long run if I don’t.

Aiden, my team mate invited us over to Sonamoo, a Korean mart in Ortigas, Pasig City, to eat some Korean noodles and hang out. I think this was before he treated us for some Popsicles because he was already resigning at that time.

So back to Sonamoo…

Day 51 of #100happydays Hanging out with the 1940 team and @inomon

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It was my first time to go to a Korean mart. So the curious in me, made me take some dark shots in the mart. I was too excited. I spent around P1000 because I had a Korean food haul on that day. Remind me not to be overly excited about everything for the first time. I tend to do so many crazy shit when I am excited and I tend to regret it afterwards. Anyhow, we were able to enjoy the food.

Dr. Aloe is our favorite drink and I got even more excited when I got to try the Honey Butter Chips that my students were talking about. I immediately bought two. However, it wasn’t the kind of taste that I was going for. Luckily, Ino liked it and actually enjoyed it.

52nd of #100happydays Kevin's honey butter chips!

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I got some instant Jajangmyeon for my midnight snack. I drained the water on the mart’s kitchen and was able to enjoy the sweet and salty taste of the black bean noodles. However, I wasn’t able to take any pictures because my phone has already died at that time.

 

Here are some of the photos that I’ve taken:

 

 

September Update.

65th of #100happydays After watching Train to Busan

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Whoa! Two months of not uploading or writing anything, huh? Sorry about that.

I’ve been pretty busy with life and I admit that I got too lazy to write anything. I stopped updating my blog since we went to Sonamoo in Centerpoint Bldg. in Ortigas because I find it such a task to accomplish. I’m still contemplating whether I’m gonna post it today or next time or on the next time that I will remember it.

And here I am, planning to be a part-time teacher and a part-time blogger next year. Way to go, self!

Well to catch up:

Ino was actually planning to “just check out” some DSLRs in Trinoma or in Quiapo but we ended up in Glorietta because the store that he found online also has a branch in Glorietta 3. The “checking out” turned into buying his own DSLR.

After buying the DSLR, we headed to the cinema and decided to watch Train To Busan. He actually gave me a choice on whether to watch Cheats in Katipunan or watch Train to Busan in Glorietta.

I honestly want to watch Cheats play. I was wearing a comfortable shirt, a pair of shorts, and sneakers. I also brought my camera in case, we decide to watch Cheats play. However, I haven’t read Saab’s blog in a while and I think I’ve missed some parts of her life already. I still listen to her band’s songs on Spotify but I haven’t been to her Twitter, Instagram or her blog since early this year. I kinda felt that I don’t know much about what”s going on with her life that’s why I decided to watch Train to Busan instead. After all, I need to get back to reality really soon. Hey Monday, that’s you!

So… Train to Busan…

It was a very good movie. We enjoyed it very much and it was a very good Saturdate night spent.  I totally recommend the movie. The make up, the CGI, the actors and the stunts were to watch for. Money well spent on this movie. I enjoyed it a lot considering that Chuseok has just finished last Friday.

On other news, I heard that Papa B is now recovering from his operation. He had a four-hour operation this afternoon. We are planning to go to Antipolo tomorrow. And nope, he isn’t the reason why I haven’t blogged in a while.

Oh! Apart from the fact that it was around June or July when my plan was disconnected, I am so happy to inform you that I’m free of debt so far! I have finally paid my Globe Bill after almost three months. The worrying will only continue after I paid my PLDT Bill.

I also went back to church recently. I at least try to go to church religiously in my own volition.

Sometimes having a relationship with Ino is frustrating, challenging, and quite complex but I am trying my best to understand him and let go of some things affecting his mood.

I stopped going to the gym too and I can feel that I’m gaining weight again. I missed my laser session this month. I had my tooth extracted last August.

The team building was a blast.

Mama S is going to go back to Taytay for Kelly today. I’ve already talked to my sister and told her that she should take care of our mom. I don’t want her to experience those conflicts again. I also would like her to be able to eat well and be happy with Kelly. Unfortunately, I won’t  be able to see her often. However, it would mean that I might not need to pay for her electric bill again.

My only concern was that we bought her a fan but she can’t use it because she’s going to stay in Taytay starting today. I will miss her but I will call her more often.

Hmmmm… what else?

I haven’t continued with my wedding plans yet. I haven’t called the dressmaker yet. I should have done that over the long holiday but I was actually worried about the down payment for the first fitting. I was worried because Papa is still in the hospital and I know that I won’t be able to ask him for some money because of his surgery.

Some problems are still piling up but hopefully things will keep me sane. I also hope that I will be able to finish everything that I need to accomplish. It’s going to be back to work, back to reality on Monday.

I also hope that things will progress as the days go by.

I don’t think that I have improved much for the past three month. In my opinion, I have slacked a lot and was very relaxed. I have to be more responsible and more motivated to work. I’ve wasted enough money and time and a bunch of excuses to cover it up. Hopefully, I can gradually get back to work and get back in shape in the upcoming months.

Due to these reasons, I haven’t updated my Sunday Currently. But, Sunday has just started so I might write about it later.

How about you? What have you been up to lately?

The Sunday Currently Vol. 13

Weekend is almost over and that means that my 3-day leave is already done. Actually, Sunday has just begun, but I’m writing this now because I may not have enough time to write later.

I spent most of my 3-day leave at home. Doing house chores and enjoying a bit of my me time. I spent half of it writing some updates on Twisted, catching up on some Korean TV series, playing some games and most of it in oversleeping and not sleeping on time.

Not very healthy, huh?

I haven’t posted much of my Sunday happenings because I got veerrryy lazy and I just didn’t feel like writing anything at all. But, I’m back. So, let’s get started.

Here’s my Sunday Currently:

Reading

It really has been ages since I’ve written anything here. I’m already on Chapter 23, which is about Valentine. I can feel the ending of this book and it’s taking me longer than expected because I’ve started reading a Filipino version of 50 Shade of Grey. At the same time, I’m also trying to read the English version on my tablet.

Listening

I can still hear the vibrations of the electric fan, and the voice over on the TV.  

Thinking

Thinking about the upcoming grammar test. I haven’t read anything or reviewed for it. I only have less than a week to start reading and reviewing.

Smelling

I can smell the scent of soup and shampoo because I just took a shower.

Wishing and Hoping

STILL Wishing and Hoping that this week would be more productive and less stressful. I hope I’ll be able to survive the working week without slacking or getting tired of going to work.

I think I’ve been writing this for a few weeks already and it still hasn’t changed. It’s slowly becoming my mantra. 

I’m also wishing and hoping that I’d get through this week without feeling so negative about things. I hope that the test won’t bother me that much so I can still work on the things that I need to concentrate on better.

I also hope and wish that I pass the test with flying colors. 🙂

Wearing

Wearing a long red sleeveless nightgown to bed.

Loving

Loving that I was able to relax this week. I feel quite energized to work and I miss my team! 🙂

Wanting

 I want to have this theme done already. At the same time, I just want to get the test done and over with.

Needing

I need to pay my bills in full. Seriously, I don’t want to have any problems with my budget anymore. It sucks.

Feeling

Feeling excited to be with friends again. Looking forward to the salary day. Looking forward to chatting with my students. Feeling nervous about the test. So, yeah.. mixed emotions.

Clicking

Clicking through my previous TSC.

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The Sunday to Monday Currently Vol. 12

Happy father’s day!

The past week was very challenging but I was able to get through it. June is halfway done and that means that the grammar test is up. So, here’s my latest Sunday currently!

 

Reading

I was able to get past Magnus Bane’s chapter in The City of Bones. It’s already half of the year and yes, I’m not yet done in re-reading it. I’m now at Hotel Dumort, still the 2nd part of the book but I’m taking these baby steps as progress in my reading quest. 🙂

Listening

Aside from the usual vibrations of the electric fan and the sound of my keyboard tapping… My current earworm is Drag Me Down by One Direction. Nope, I’m not a Directioner but this all started when I was listening to Love Yourself, Hands to Myself and Perfect by Kaya May and Landon Austin on Spotify. 

 

Thinking

Thinking about the upcoming grammar test. I haven’t read anything or reviewed for it. I still have less than two weeks to hustle but I got caught up with so much things to do. 

Smelling

I can smell the scent of Koji San on my skin.

Wishing and Hoping

STILL Wishing and Hoping that this week would be more productive and less stressful. I hope I’ll be able to survive the working week without slacking or getting tired of going to work.

I think I’ve been writing this for a few weeks already and it still hasn’t changed. It’s slowly becoming my mantra. 

I’m also wishing and hoping that I’d get through this week without feeling so negative about things. I hope that the test won’t bother me that much so I can still work on the things that I need to concentrate on better.

Wearing

Wearing a short black flowery nightgown to bed.

Loving

Loving that I was able to enjoy the weekend with Ino. Our plan to officially celebrate at Hampton Gardens was a success! 

Wanting

 I want to have this theme done already.

Needing

Needing more time to prepare for my test. I also need to start preparing for our wedding.

Feeling

Feeling a bit upset that Ino hasn’t done anything about the wedding preps lately. I know that he’s busy with finding a job and getting his requirements settled. However, I’m just getting tired with hearing “I’ll do that this weekend.” but it takes so long before it gets done. I also feel quite disappointed because he promised that he will request for his CENOMAR this payday but he forgot.

I really want to be a very understanding girlfriend but as a human, I think I am also entitled to feel these things. The worst feeling in the world is getting your hopes up on people to keep their promises but they keep on forgetting what they have said or intended to do. 

Clicking

Clicking through SiddhaThornton’s link up and my previous TSC.

 

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The Sunday Currently Vol. 11

 

It’s June 12! Philippine’s Independence Day!

I don’t have much to say but I’m doing this because it’s a Sunday once again. 🙂

 

Reading

I haven’t done any reading this past few days.  I was pretty occupied with gaming that’s why I haven’t read anything interesting. 

Listening

My current earworm is Randomantic by James Reid. Specifically the part “Haharanahin kita, san man tayo magpunta, yung tipong kahit wala lang
O kaya biglang may breakfast in bed, just to keep you interested
Lahat ay dahil wala lang (wala lang)
I just wanna do simple random things to say “I love you”
Ohh ohh I love you”

 

Thinking

Thinking about the big move on the 32nd floor, bills to pay for the upcoming payday and how this week will turnout. Overthinking? Yes.

Smelling

I can smell some fruity scent in the room.

Wishing and Hoping

STILL Wishing and Hoping that this week would be more productive and less stressful. I hope I’ll be able to survive the working week without slacking or getting tired of going to work.

Wearing

Wearing a black spaghetti-strapped dress and a pair of shorts because we’ll be sleeping in a few hours.

Loving

Loving that I was able to finish my misschesca‘s featured images and tags!! That means, I only have to re-calibrate my tags for this blog and hopefully, Ino can help me out with the theme soon. 🙂

Wanting

 I want to rest some more ’cause all I did was clean the house and not really take a rest. 🙁 I also want this week to be less stressful, more enjoyable and remarkable, and more interesting.

Needing

Needing more napkins! JK. 🙂 Groceries! I need to buy toiletries. I need to paymy bills in full. I also need to pamper myself but I still don’t have the means. :'( And, Oh! I still need an extension of my weekend. 

Feeling

Feeling mixed emotions. I’m tired, sleepy and hungry.

Clicking

Clicking through SiddhaThornton’s link up, my previous TSC, and James Reid’s Randomantic lyrics link

 

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